I'm not Julie anymore. I have a new name. Its mom. Someday I will say I want to change my name - I'm not mom anymore! LOL Dont all mom's say that at one point or another especially when they get this
But I like being "Mom" It is still strange for me to answer the phone and hear "Is this Audrey's mom?" When I go places "Ok mom you can hold her now." "Alright mom bring her over here" At daycare. "Look Audrey's mom is here" "Tell Audrey's mom bye" Everywhere else, even if I do not get referred to as mom I only get Audrey related questions. How is Audrey! Do you have pictures of Audrey. I AM AUDREY"S MOM.
However, as Julie, I still haven't quite figured out who Audrey's mom is. I have not found the balance yet between Julie and Audrey's mom. I knew Julie very well LOL I was comfortable with who I was, I knew what I wanted, I knew what I was doing. I was good at Julie! Now as Audrey's mom I forget things all the time, I dont know what to do most of the time, and some days are just survived.
Its getting better, and I wouldn't trade it for anything. But I am working on finding out who I am again. I need to find the perfect balance between being Julie and being Audrey's mom. I will get there and someday soon I will be able to say;
HI! I am JULIE, AUDREY's MOM :)